Wednesday, December 13, 2006

oh wells. i really like this song. to me, its the sort u can hear over and over again but not feel sad. kinda like here without u by three doors down. call me weird. wadever. haha. anyway. looking at the songs the hc sang the other day, i like their musical taste.

oh wells. far away doesnt need to be defined by physical distance. for me, its kinda both.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Far Away, Nickelback

not that i regret anything but i kinda wonder wad would have happened if i went to church when sam asked me instead. oh wells. kinda want the new environment too but if u feel its better den i wont fight with u la. perhaps my salvation story would be half as dramatic and sound much less God ordained. oh wells. anyway, the cycle of all those closest to be leaving the cell is probably gonna go full circle soon.

u know on sunday, i was just kicking the ball or shooting hoops with sean. it was so liberating. its like dribbling and running around with the ball is just so liberating. u just forget everything for that moment. and if it all creeps back into ur head, just bam, smack the ball and ur back into the state of forgetting it all. man, i long for a soccer match.

really cant sleep la. watching the encore telecast of roma and lazio. italian soccer, so frigging boring.

sometimes, just gets so lonely la. doesnt help when u spend the whole day with u, you and yourself. sometimes, people tell me, ur lucky or ur blessed or u have a good life cus ur so busy. u know i just wish i could find this bunch of people i could just chill out with, not think of problems, not think about how lag my studies have been this holidays.

i wanna go back to new zealand. lie on the dung filled grass. haha. and just stare at the star filled sky out in the open and drift off to sleep...

suddenly there are so many GAPs around. oh wells. sigh. for me, its just one big GAP. anyway. wanna thank grandma for the 50 bucks she gave me in advance for my bdae. i felt darn bad but she insisted i take it. sheeesh. oh wells. i ll take money from anyone but not my grandma la. feels darn bad cus she isnt working, but thanks anyway! kinda dread next monday thou. never had a really joyful birthday for years, had contented feelings before, but thats all just average, isnt it...

|cowpoo| 1:14 AM|

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